you stated you didn't wish to talk to me anymore because it hurt too much so instead i write here. there were things i didn't get to say and i need someone to hear them. i was a fool to take you back. i should have seen you wanted something more, that i wasn't it. truth is, we were done a long time ago. i am glad tho, that we continued and tried to be friends at the end. you supported me when i needed it even thought we both knew it wouldn't end well. honestly, i didn't want to move back home cuz i knew it would be the end of us and i was scared. i didn't know how to live without you after so many years. now i look back and im not sure if i would do anything different. i believe everything happens for a reason even though i haven't figured all that out yet. i see you in friends fb pics and my heart stops. i do not love you anymore but i do worry. i wish you were strong enough to be my friend. i want to be there for you. maybe that means staying away, i don't know. remember laying in bed at grandmas. those promises you made, the promises you broke. you broke me in more ways then you know. but you also opened my mind to new things which i am thankful for. i have learnt to live without you, except when you randomly cross my mind. it brings me back to all of this. you wrote me a letter once which you hid in my scrapbook. you also wrote me a card with a kitten on the front. i found them today. i will burn them tomorrow. i cannot hold onto the past anymore. i hope you figure out whatever it is that has been bugging you so much. i hope you will let someone into your world that you wont sabotage. everyone needs someone to care for them. incase you are wondering, i am doing fine. lost alot of family but gained many friends. katie and i grow closer all the time. bella is very well. she has more love around here then you could imagine. its time to move on for good. so this is my goodbye. please take care and know you are a good person, you just need to let it show.
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